My mom called me a salmon

I started practicing Bikram yoga in early 2009.  I was terrible at the rabbit.



My rabbit looked more like a…well, whatever animal can’t touch their head to their knees or lift their butt off their feet.  My rabbit looked more like an inflexible human.

But after awhile I got the head part down.  And after a little more while I managed to insert the tiniest sliver of air between my butt and feet.

While preparing for my epidural this February I was instructed to arch my back in much the same way as Bikram up there, and I thought to myself, “Oh crap.  I’m terrible at this.  What if I can’t do it??  Perhaps I would have worked harder at that stupid rabbit if I had known it would one day lay between me and those sweet, sweet drugs.”

But, alas, I pulled through.  And for the last couple weeks I’ve been able to straighten my arms.  It only took me 3 years.  To go from terrible to…not quite as terrible.

Just the other day I was talking to my mom about my progress in the mental health department.  I felt better after starting therapy, but have sort of plateaued over the last few weeks.  I told her that I think it’s just going to take time.

That’s when she called me a salmon.  Slowly swimming up the river of life.  If only the salmon was a yoga pose.  I’d probably be pretty good at it.

6 thoughts on “My mom called me a salmon

  1. Okay, I don’t do yoga, but I had to try that pose. lol I got my head on my knees and my hands on my heels, but my butt only goes up about halfway. Which I guess is pretty good considering you can’t do it after three years either. hahaha

    I’m sorry you’re still dealing with the mental health issues. To be honest, that’s one reason (in a sea of many other reasons) that I never wanted kids. I know lots of personally sane, happy women who have dealt with some pretty kick-ass postpartum depression. I’ve had issues with depression with no real reason or cause. I would just bet that a kid would be enough to make me snap! Hope your therapy continues to help. ❤

    • Yeah, that’s definitely really good for having never tried before. Especially since I’m guessing you tried it at room temperature too. BTW – I love that you tried it!

      And as for the kids – there’s absolutely nothing wrong with not having any. Not only will you maintain your sanity, you’ll also probably get to retire earlier…with a flatter stomach.

  2. All I can think about is trying that pose, but I’m too embarrassed. Maybe someday.

    I’m glad to hear that your mental health improved slightly. I hope as the days and weeks go by that it continues to get better. I like what your mom said, and along with that you can be like Dorie from Finding Nemo and think, “Just keep swimming, just keep swimming, just keep swimming, swimming, swimming!”

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